Pleasure is the real currency

If no matter what I "do", "plan", or "try", I just cannot attain pleasure,
Then all faith in my doing, that I could achieve any real pleasure/progress through my efforts/plans/doing, is near 0.
It is as if something like winter has set in, and it opposes all life severely, and no life can put any effort to overcome winter.
Paralysis/Stasis sets in, all drives in the direction of progress/expansion are suppressed.
The mind reverses its direction and turns against the organism, now it works towards ending its existence, instead of its usual direction of seeking pleasure and expanding its empire.
It then uses all its force to apply brakes on life.
This is the crushing of spirit, 'Depression' at its finest.

The constant outer hostile environ situations are internalized, and now the mind carries all of that in itself, and inflicts that constantly on the organism, like a 24/7 internalized tyrant.
The old reality still lives in the mind, and acts like the same past environ  is continuously present even now, like a ghost of the past.
The mind ideally needs to move into an environ far more encouraging of life, and then replace the old hostile environ internalization with the new life supporting internalization.
When everyone around you want you to be rather dead, then the situation is of living in a deeply hostile place.