Important discrimination in Yoga

Discrimination in yoga:

# Memory/Recall/Register = Smriti knowing (recalling)

# Imagination/Interpretation/Envisioning/Tuning into other's realities-karmas/Predictive systems/Fear of bad past repeating to any extent or worse/Desirious Anticipation of the good past repeating to any extent or better/Thought-thinking/Self/DMN = Maya knowing (playing)

# Sleep/Dreaming = Unclutched/Relaxation state knowing (relaxing)

# Clear-perception, Pure-perception, Bare-perception = Samadhi/Shruti knowing (understanding)

# Colored/Distorted/Goal-oriented/Tunneled/Lensed perception/AN = Siddhi knowing (becoming)

So the different knowings are:

Smriti, Maya, Relaxation, Samadhi/Shruti, Siddhi.

Functions:

Recalling, Playing, Relaxing, Understanding, Becoming 

The various existential cycles

The cycles:

# Sandhyas/transition periods each day (6am, 12pm, 6pm, 12am)

# Day-Night (earth's rotation)

# 14 days (full moon, new moon), 

# Months (moon new cycle), 

# Seasons (3 months)

# Year (season new cycle)

# 12 years (sun cycle)

# Vimsottari Astro-cycles (Mahadashas-Antardashas-Pratyantardashas-Sookshmadashas) (120yr cycle)

- Personal [sun, moon, mercury, venus, mars, rahu, ketu] 

- Social [jupiter, saturn] 

- Transpersonal [uranus, neptune, pluto]

# Narayana Dasa (144yr cycle)(Kumbh Mela) = 12 signs traversed for 12 years each. 

USB file transfer and food analogy for the understanding that I desire from others.

USB file transfer analogy for the understanding that I desire from others.

The understanding I want from people,
Is like 'USB transfer' of my file,
And installation of that file in their laptop/phone.
So say I went for a 1 month trip,
And say I want to transmit a 500mb file of my experiences to other people,
What happens is that,
As I make the connection with wire,
And start transmitting...,
They pull out the USB plug after I have transmitted a random 1mb fragment of the file.
They then now have a random 1mb incomplete fragment of that file I was sending them.
They then cut off the conversation and change the topic to something else.
Then I wonder what happens to that junk file fragment they have stored.
I guess it would go into their recycle bin as a useless file?
To be deleted in a day at best?
So my real desire for understanding would be,
That they download all of the 500mb of my file,
In a high speed connection (better listening, attention, interest),
And after receiving all of the 500mb,
I would like them to install that file on their phone/laptop,
And then I would have transmitted the real essence and it would become a shared psychic experience.

Another similar analogy could be that of food.
I give them food, and I would like them to eat and digest it through all its stages to extract the essence of what I was trying to convey.
But here also they simply taste it just a little and spit it out.
When I understand people,
I do the whole thing.
I let them talk it out fully,
And then download their file,
And extract the essence of that by installing that within me (understanding, contemplating, extracting)
But because this is unrequited all the time,

Nowadays even I just skim-hear things and drop it off without showing full interest.

The desire for other's inclusion and understanding

I like the process of someone understanding me and including me.

It is a kind of investing in me.

To reflect me back to me.

That reflection I never got, that I desire for.

That investment of energy/attention/interest that I never received, that I desire for.

The reason why this has never happened is,

The other needs to desire understanding too,

To the same depth/frequency/extent.

That would automatically lead them to understand themselves first,

And then extend that to me easily after that.

The appearance of transmission of experience

Sg raised an interesting question in enlightenment,

About experience vs understand.

I want to first experience -> then understand -> then express it.

This raises another question.

Can experience be transmitted?

I think it appears to be transmitted when there is deep willingness in the other.

But in deeper reality, it is the longing vacuum of the other that seeks it from you.

It is like they sought you as a catalyst inspiration proof, 

To strive and access that from within themselves.

So the outer guru is the reflection of your own inner guru.

Once you make connection with your inner guru, 

You have also union-ed with the outer guru,

Who is actually the reflected symbolic embodiment of your inner guru.

That is why it is said, you develop the longing and the guru will emerge.

Because it actually in-forms within you, 

And reflects outside like a guru causing the outer guru to appear in myriad ways.

This is actually true for all experience.

The outer experience is only a reflection/projection/mirror of the inner process.

The outer-inner go together.

So it is only God/Higher field that makes anything happen.

Things just appear to happen through one agent causing something to an other.

That is why causation is an illusion.

But from the higher pov, 

You are god himself, 

Experiencing a symbolic journey of through yourself.

Everything that is perceived to be happening outside,

Is the reflection of the mechanics within.

The million chemistries and its flows determine experience of the outer,
Which only serves like a canvas/stage/prop-set.

Whatever happens to you,
Is the attraction based on your own desires.

Dark night of the soul, 12h, night sea journey

# The 12h is like a desync.

This desync is what causes loss of everything.

It seems like the fall into the unconscious,

To serve total transcendence.

Once fallen into the unconscious,

Experience takes on the form of a quantum mesh,

Similar to a caterpillar turning into the cocoon,

And the old is completely lost in this process.

Thereafter it is that quantum mesh intelligence,

That will act as the ground for the new formation.

# This is the night sea journey to the next shore.

Where one surrenders to time/kalabhairava (the time transformer)

Which is like surrendering to the rhythms/movements/motions of the sea.

Having left the previous shore, that is out of sight now and cannot be returned to,

And with the new shore not even visible in the horizon,

It is the night sea journey or dark night of the soul.

The dark night of soul is just the intelligence that transcends darkness and light.

A transcendent quantum like intelligence.

The dawn is when the next shore becomes visible,

And when the movement towards that inspired place,

Can be clearly mapped, tracked, measured and seen.

# Life unable to expand,

Into the place, people, process(time).

They are the walls of the prison.

They act as walls sometimes, 

Tormentors at other times.

Like the walls and the oppressive guards.

Oppressing in myriad ways in my perception.

The Sadist and Masochist strategy

Both sadism and masochism are based on attacking vulnerabilities.
One is identified with the vulnerability in themselves,
The other is identified with the strength in themselves.
Accordingly, 2 strategies are used to end the threat to their identification.

For the sadist, the strategy is: 

To preemptively attack their vulnerabilities, or prepare for doing that,

So that the other is prevented and disabled from attacking yours.

This is the strategy of sadist/predator mind.
It is weakness inside, strength display outside.

For the masochist, the strategy is:

You take it on yourself to attack your own vulnerabilities and try to end them,

And remove all traces of them.

This is masochist/depressive mind.

This is the attempt to preemptively kill off all needs,
By your own violence towards them.

Now you expect violent from others, prepare and brace for it, and thereby try to stay immune.

But the root for both cases here is: The idea of "EXPECTING" the same things to happen.

What unites the sadist and masochist is = the deep expectation to be attacked/rejected etc. coming from the deep memories of the same from the past.

The responses to this can be complementary because of opposite identifications.

The masochist is identified with strength, and therefore works to remove his vulnerability - in preparation or in reaction.

The sadist is identified with vulnerability, and therefore works to fight all threats off - in preparation or in reaction.

Since this expectation seeks to prove/validate itself again and again,

It seeks/attracts the same circumstances/people to confirm and justify this again and again.

So it is a vicious loop that has a strong gravity of its own,

Which keeps it constantly spinning, and repeating itself in one's experience.

Vision and Detail

Samadhi(eye1) ------- General state (eye2) -------- Action/Involved/Focused state (eye3)

Samadhi = Stillness/Vision ------- Normal state = Action

Sanity ------- Insanity.

Vision ------ Detail

Wide angle ----- Regular ----- Zoom 

Creativity and its roots

The same dung/manure/filth -> creates the tree, leaves, fruits, flowers.

The whole exercise is about channeling and transforming those energies into creative works.

The deep resistance, frustration against existence is sublimated to great works of creativity.

So there are 2 dimensions to creativity, 

# The raw energy in its raw form which is like the filth in manure.

# And then the creative works that are put out which are like fruits/flowers/leaves. 

Technology as an extension of our fascination with tools

Generally all technology is the extension of the fascination and interest with tools.

# First we made physical tools to master the physical and mechanical world.

# Then now we have moved on to the electronic tools.

They recreate the "mind layer" starting with the function of MEMORY.

The idea was to capture all memory.

The Internet and all its nodes(computers) are the foundation of the "digital mind" we have built.

Which is an extension of our very own mind.
Generally the creative action mimics the principles of reproduction.
That is, the node tries to replicate itself multiple times first -> and then it proceeds to form a network of connection -> and then it extends all of its individual functionality more and more to the larger network created -> So that eventually the node itself becomes transparent, and all its capabilities are spread throughout the network.

This exact process is followed in the tech development today too, 

Like how initially we started with the desktop computer, where storage -processing - and I/O was all handled within the setup.

Then this was replicated, and millions of such machines were produced.

Then it moved on to the dimension of the internet, where a huge connection infrastructure (wired and wireless) was put in place.

And finally, now we have things like cloud computing and cloud storage that offloads the individual nodes from needing to do all of that and distributing all computation an storage across the entire network.
This kind of principle applies to even human beings.

That is how we formed groups and then societies.

Laid all the transport systems,. the societies resource carry and distribution carrier we call money (just like blood which is the carrier of the distilled resources in our own body).

And slowly the society takes on forms like culture and the individual people offload their individual processing into the hive mind of culture/society.

# The Ra-Law of One, states that eventually all humans would fuse into a super mind creating a Social memory complex, which is exactly akin to the principle I stated, where storage and computation are distributed evenly throughout the network, creating a holographic super-meta-mind.

This would be such that each node/individual here can speak for the whole as the whole and will showcase all the capability present in the whole. 

Ultimately even today, we are still driven by our evolutionary determined biology.
Human nature and the human body has still not changed in the past 10000 years.
We are fundamentally the same, but only our tools are different.
All of our tools were all created as an attempt to overcome the limitations of nature.
So what is our deepest limitation? It is our own body.
We have still not come to that stage yet and we still have a long way to go.
Right now we are only addressing our body limitations at a band-aid like level.
We are just trying to give people tools to stay functional until they die and leave this plane.
We have various systems to assist, prolong, or enhance life/various faculties that we have.
But the nodes of this network are still driving the whole network, and these nodes are mostly living off animal natures. We are still subject to the same pain/suffering and other animal instincts as we were 1000s of years ago.

So in the future, going along the trajectory of technology we are in now,
We will most certainly get into the region of transhumanism and genetic engineering.
This is to transcend our fundamental biological limitations while existing as a body in this plane.

Genesis of my interest in cameras

Fundamental/Beginners mind musings:

Genesis of my interest in cameras:

# Binoculars -> Cams -> Smartphone cams 

It all started with binoculars in 7th std (where I gave a passionate discourse to Vinay about it).

# The visual sense comprises 60% of the brain sensory processing centers.
While I can see far and wide 5km, 

Hearing and smelling is only 10m,

And taste and touch are only on contact.

# That is why the interest in tech to extend the senses - first visual and hearing, then touch, and finally taste and smell.

When it comes to our own sensory memory - image/video/audio takes the top place, then even touch memory is fairly high, but taste and smell memory is almost 0.

# Cameras go a step even beyond binoculars/monoculars/microscopes/telescopes.

Because they have the great ability of "memory" (both image and video memory).

They can actually not only extend the visual sense by a factor of 10x-80x but also store it as an image or video.

# I was also interested in audio zoom, which is at its infancy now.

We would have to use lasers (like what they did in the cold war time) to point at something and get the sound waves fro there.
So that covers the top "RANGED senses" of seeing and hearing.

Smelling is also the next ranged sense.

Whereas tasting and touching are only on-contact senses.
# So having a camera with you is like a massive tool for visual extension and visual memory both in images and video.

# Then comes things like sound recorders, which may not extend yet, but they can record.

So that explains my interest in "image/video/sound capturing/extending/recording"
# I am also interested in collecting memories in general.
This simply extends itself as my interest in collecting images/video/audio (collecting all the images in memory to make myself richer while also having access to all of it anytime).
Also since this is digital (vs analog), I can understand everything with an exactness/clarity/detail level that is otherwise not possible.

So I try to understand everything to its finest extent, in this case, to the level of pixels.
This also ties in to my interest to transcend time and space.

For instance, I can view images/videos of what I did 10 years ago, or I can watch a YT video of a song video I heard and saw in childhood.
All of these tools help me overcome many of the limitations of time and space.

The action of life manifesting vs. reactive defensiveness manifesting

Rather than becoming what the human society wants me to be,

I want to become what life within me wants to be.

Action is a mixture of: [Pure action of life] and [Reaction/Defensive action to protect things that life would otherwise take away].

Giving up all illusions and dropping into the flow of actual life, makes you a pure channel of the life river.

The defensive action is to protect some illusion, that is some part of the river of life that you are trying to solidify or concretize, like a plastic flower.

Quell the violence within you, to see the peace outside you

All Severity = Severance.

Both cutting off someone and aggressively pursuing someone are forms of violence.

What has to come will come, what has to go will go.

All denial and refusal is violence too.

All separateness and specific limited identification is violence too.

All exclusion is violence.

Live with ease and awareness. 

There is no hurry or haste for anything.

Focus on what you desire, and the rest will simply rearrange itself.

Whether you do it yourself or have a master do it for you, hardly matters.

You are moving towards your longing, that is the only thing that matters.

Let everything be the stepping stone to that inexhorable longing.

Others can only give me what I am ready to give myself.

Others can only take from me, what they are ready to receive themselves.

All relationship/interaction is a bi-directional symbiotism.

You receive what you judge you deserve to receive.

You give what you deem others' deserve.

Cutting others off is no different from cutting yourself off.

It is all a form of extremism, splitting of polarity, and violence.

Quell the violence within you, then you will stop experiencing it outside too. 

The Self and the Outside are mirrors of each other.

You only ever experience your own state of being.

Viruses, Cancer, and Autoimmune Diseases

3 sister concepts:

Virus, Cancer, Autoimmune diseases.

Cell Memory, Cell Intelligence, Cell Energy.

Intelligence = Process, Dynamics

Memory = Information, Code, DNA, Blueprint

Energy = Prana, Life

Virus = The cellular memory corruption program.

Exactly like a computer virus = Which is a bundle of memory/code, that hacks/infects the host, and uses the host's life-intelligence-process to do its bidding.
Thereafter when the infected cell reproduces, the dysfunction is reproduced.

The general intelligence of the body may then decide to eliminate these cells by withdrawing life force to them and letting them die, and excrete them out of the system.

Some questions:

What are viruses?

Do Viruses  have 'life'?

Are they material at all? 

Do they have a definite size and shape? 

Are they contained in a certain volume of space?

Are they like ghosts waiting for a host to take life out of?

Do they have a will and intelligence of their own, like a bacterial organism?

If they are purely passive and a defined object in space, then what transports/spreads them from host to host?

How do they enter the host and invade the cells?

Where do viruses come from? 

How much of them is present on earth?

How ubiquitous are they?

Do they mutate and evolve?

What is the difference between getting affected by a toxin vs. a virus?

Polarity of independence and dependence

The fear is of getting stuck in being dependent or independent, 

The fear of getting stuck in the other extreme.

It is not very different from good-evil, right-wrong, and so on.

Dependent-Independent is also one such duality/duel.

The good is obsessed with the evil, 

The right is obsessed with the wrong.

Similarly the pain point is mostly the opposite polarity trying to invade itself upon one.

Fully experiencing both with intensity will liberate you.

Often the inability/failure/suffering of handling one extreme, 

Creates the need for the "other compensatory extreme" as a the denial of the former and as an insulation away from it.

But then whatever is denied within us, gets projected outside to the next rung, 

And then we keep attracting the opposite from the outside because we are unable to own that need within us.

What is within us, but projected outside, makes us attracted to that in the outside.

Because the psyche is in the quest for wholeness, so it wants everything.

It is therefore out-sourced to the outside, and then we feel a need to keep the opposite polarity as near to us as we can bear.

So the distance between you and that quality you desire, is exactly calibrated to the extent you can bear it.

For the hyper independent, the need is for others who need them.

For the hyper dependent, the need is to need others. 

Our own need disowned is outsourced to the other.

In our consciousness we experience the other person's quality fully, as fully as our own, 

But we need them to "own it and take responsibility for it" ,

Because we are unwilling and averse to owning that, 

Because that quality would have hurt us in the past,

Or would have been our point of powerlessness and failure (in our history).

The 3 stages: Growth, Transformation or Maintenance, Dissolution

Indulgence leads to exhaustion.

[Prod and Consump rates] should match.

If consumption is always greater = you will fall into suffering, death, and loss.

On the other hand, if production is greater = you will build up the inner reserves and power.

3 stages: Growth, Transformation, Dissolution:

# Growth is additive (+), 

# Transformation is equal addition and subtraction (+ and -)

# Then there is death = which is only subtraction (-), no addition.

Life path 3 phases:

# So life starts off from the fertilized egg as "GROWTH(+)" until the full growth is reached around 25?!

# Then there is the stage of "TRANSFORMATION(+ -) OR STASIS/MAINTENANCE(+ -)", you choose. Adding new things or adding the same things, that is the choice.

# Then there is the stage of "DEATH(-)" which is only loss.

Also for every zero sum cycle, there is a gain in the higher cycle.

Like when the minute hand goes round the clock once fully, it causes the hour hand to move slightly.

Every birth then is like a journey/trip/adventure/school.

The infinite intelligence shines through all creation

The infinite intelligence shines through all creation.
It is for you to open yourself to seeing this in every form.

Controlling the sub-persona engagement with others

No matter, how many sub-personas exist in a person,

By frame-controlling the interaction,

You can engage specifically with whichever one you want.

But generally I like to leave it free, and let the whole mix with the whole.

Because I like freedom for both myself and the other.
I don't like the pressure of control.
I want it to be an organic natural whole interaction.

Becoming is the focusing of a potential

Whatever your SOC,

Every thing/form seems to focus it.

It is like the painting colors are the SOC.

And the forms give them form to varying degrees of sharpness.

There there is the "Forming power" energy.

If that is low, you cannot hold any form, and it would never reach full clarity and resolution.

You would have to stop at the abstract itself.

All achievements are the peak of becoming-focus and clarity.

It is just like the different levels of drawing a face,

From abstract ------- To the photograph 

(and all the knowledge at each layer).

That is why I feel between the sky and earth,
From Akaash -> Air -> Fire -> Water -> Earth,
I cannot quite come down to earth and reach materialization levels.

My creations stay at the level of air itself.
That is why the extensive writing as the creative output.

That is why I relate very strong to being like an eagle.
I can ascend the skies and gain visionary knowledge.
But I can only come to the ground strategically,
And cannot live in the ground like actual ground animals do.
It is like I live in a bridge reality between the astral and physical.

It is the world of the artist, transporter between realms.

Samskara vs Karma

The situation = Samskara
Your response = Karma

Completion begets more completion

Completion begets completion
Happiness begets happiness
Incompletion begets incompletion
Unhappiness begets unhappiness

About silence

More the silence/stillness = Higher the frequency + higher the influence power.

More the sound = Lower the frequency + lower the influence power.

"Silence is the ultimate dissolution, 

And all solution is dissolution".

Creation is dissolved in silence.

Creation emerges in sound.

Silence = Unborn, Uncreated, Infinite potential.

Silence cures everything.

It is the greatest refuge.

Advice I give myself on listening to the body

Separate the chakras.

Food and water is about listening to the body.

Listen to these centers:

# Water = 5c

# Food = 3c

# Sex = 2c.

# Physical activity = 1c.

Following rules etc. is to still give away "power/knowledge/authority" to the outside.

It is a continuation of the idolization of parents.

They are a stepping stone, and so are all other authorities.

They are not to be used as a permanent crutch.

You are meant to learn and outgrow them, and not be permanently under them.

One has to take total responsibility and move towards that autonomy.

The movement from "Knowledge/rules -> DE/DK/DP"

Anyway all knowledge/rules point to your own DE/DK/DP.

So rather than being focused on playing with the pointers all the time, work directly in the space of what is pointed at - that is your own DE/DK/DP/Understanding.

Denial and Control always go together.

The controlling person has suppressed/repressed too many things and is trying to shield that system all the time.

Rather, keep receiving new input about your self and keep upgrading your understanding and structures.

Be a work in progress rather than a fixed system that has to be endlessly defended.

Excessive Fixity/Rigidity coming from identification with a fixed narrow psychological structure is actually the root of most psychological illnesses.

It creates a lack of flow/evolution.

Open up everything in the mental and physical space and adapt your structure to that.

The simultaneous dream

There is no causation.

Everything is a simultaneous appearance.

Just like a dream.

Spawning the [dreamer ---- relationship ----- dream world] simultaneously.

Even here:

Me (the changing subject configuration) ----- in relationship with ------ World (the changing object configuration)

Is happening together, simultaneously.

Experience is essentially the sex/relation between a changing me and the changing world.

This play of this [changing relationship] between the [changing me structure] and the [changing world structure] is MY EXPERIENCE.

There is only this experience-dream.

I am the light/fire/intelligence/awareness, 

And this whole dream happens as the modulation and play of my substance.

I am neither emptiness nor the fullness of this dream appearing.

This whole dream is one of my possibilities, 

And my true nature is ever free and transcendent of whatever appears.

The 3 states of consciousness

The modes of operation:

Sleep = Sleep

Dreaming = Imagination

Waking = Sleep + Imagination + Waking senses

Your rooting determines your freedom/dance

Life itself is a response. 

Infinite response = Infinite response-ability. 

Your ability to perceive and adapt/rearrange your elements using intelligence to let the response flow through.

Now this rearrangement is not necessary all the time and totally.

There is the dimension of life that is relatively unchanging, the foundation.

If you lock the root chakra and stabilize it with that, then the expression can be much grander and powerful.

Exactly like how in martial arts, the strength of your punch comes from your rooting.

Here the grandness of your life comes from your establishment and rooting in the ground.

That is why sg was saying, the root chakra is the foundation and it therefore has to be tuned to the most unchanging aspect of life.

You use the ground to jump higher.

The more you push off the ground, the higher you can jump.

The more stable your foundation, the higher you can jump without losing balance.

Gyana is the ultimate foundation in my opinion.

The rooting foundation determines the freedom and possibility.

You can watch a movie or do crazy things in a lucid dream only after establishing yourself about their nature.

Similarly this life can be enjoyed only from the position of transcendence and rooting.

People take rooting into the socio-cultural-familial systems.

But I want to take root in Gyana/Wisdom got from DE/DP/DK. 

Other people's integrity authenticity responsibility is my security and foundation

Another person's "integrity, stability, sanity, respect + inclusion for others, responsibility, authenticity, enriching activity" = My "security stability relief peace relaxation ease rest harmony" and I can focus on "developing myself with a good stable conducive foundation".

Else there is feeling of "fear, threat, anxiety, preparedness to defend/fight/argue/protect, hypervigilance, arousal, alertness, stress" and a pressure to keep self-correcting the "disruption, disturbance, noise, domination, unfairness, unreasonableness, oppression, tyranny, craziness, violations, exploitation, madness, drama (strawman, misleading, misguiding, totally unnecessary, leading astray, gaslighting, self-serving, specious), chaotic energies" in my own system and in the atmosphere around me.

The play of the millions of chemicals and neurotransmitters is 'experience'

Capacity for sublime enjoyment ----and---- Capacity for sublime suffering.

It is all in the consciousness and its refine-ness.

It is basically how the "consciousness light" shines "through" my "millions of neurotransmitters and organic chemicals"

It depends on my instrument and what influences I hone into.

Those continuously flowing/shifting "millions of neurotransmitters chemicals" (MoNC) form the screen images/experience.

The potential for all experience then is within the body.

The field moves the body.

The body is like a receiver/receptacle for universal influences.

This experience is what I call 'feels'.

Surrender all memory back to the field, into expansion, into the higher frequency.

Experiencing and the willingness to experience itself is a sublimation.

Karma has to be experienced, released, and thereby sublimated.

First I become a universal finest solvent myself, then my capability to dissolve anything becomes supreme - which would put me in the class of 'dissolver'.

The experience food that you have taken has to be digested/processed.

The physicality and mentality is from the whirlpools and tornados forming in the river and the winds of Mahakala.

I needed to spawn here and get a body-mind setup - now I'll focus only on my true desires - to complete with everything and everyone here.

Sadhana paadam (the seeking/striving/adventure) -> Kaivalya paadam (enjoyment of the fruits)

Whatever is good enriching for life is good/right.

Whatever is bad diminishing for life is bad/wrong. 

The dance of the narcissist and borderline patterns within the psyche

All judgment is self-judgment. That is what creates guilt.

All rejection is self-rejection.

We attract or are triggered by whoever mirrors our own self-judgment and self-rejection.

Parents ignoring you is a cold-war hostility. 

It is introjected as "I must be bad, parents are good' or projected as "Parents must be bad, I am unconditionally good".

Then one does not know what is wrong in oneself that others do not like. 

So it becomes other-focused, and focused always on the reflection of itself in others (hypnosis), and believes "It is bad, but it does not know why it is bad".

So it keeps attracting "critical" "fixed mindset narcissist" personalities who are themselves trying to live up to an image to atone themselves - because here it ticks both boxes:

I am bad + Why I am bad (some impossible goals).

It confirms and validates the negative self-image.

For the narcissist, the attraction is, just yesterday she was so nice to me and understood everything, and today all is lost. There must be a way to train her to stay in the idealization state, and then he keeps trying to fix her.

This is the dance between the borderline and the narcissist.

The narcissist will seek higher and higher ideals in the hierarchy.

While the borderline aspect of self is untameable, problem creating, reckless, unpredictable, disruptor - and opposes even the highest of ideals in a deep regression into chaos.

Since the borderline is an empty mirror, it can idealize the narcissist completely and fulfill it.

This is what the narcissist is seeking. The approval validation adoration admiration.

But the borderline will switch to the polar opposite and reverse everything.

The narcissist tries to get the borderline to agree to its ideals.

But the borderline is going to change into hyde after playing jekyll with rapidly alternating idealization and devaluation, because the repression mechs are like a muscle, only works for some time.

This pattern is so addictive because it is inconsistently fulfilling, exactly like cocaine.

That is what holds the 2 trapped with each other.

The borderline because of the failure of repression cannot hold on to the idealized narcissist loving self, loses the repression sooner or later, and sets forth a bunch of repressed forces that perform the opposite actions of destruction.

The narcissist has the 'inadequacy/unworthiness' wound, to reach the ideals, so as to be worthy of approval/love/respect/adoration/admiration/esteem.

The 'unconscious superego ideals' dominates the unconscious.

The borderline has the 'unconscious id primal impulses' dominating the unconscious.

So the borderline and narcissist are not meant to be together, the relationship is a stretch from both sides. The narcissist stretches to try to fix the borderline while the borderline struggles to repress its 'id' to meet the ideals of the narcissist.

So both of them have that suffering on-off/intermittent/inconsistent/flashing/unsustainable relationship.

The ultra organized independent narcissist ----vs----- The ultra dependent enmeshed borderline

They are both parts of human nature.

And these 2 are its extremes.

The drive to become the ideal to get admiration/value/love ----vs---- The drive to become the seductress to merge into different personas and get loved/wanted.

Idealism (narcissist) ----vs---- Seduction (borderline)

Both of these come from the visuddhi 5c throat chakra = anyakara rift.

The skill of becoming the achiever, ideal ---vs---- Merging into the other, shape shifting Cinderella, pure seduction.

Self focus/absorption ----vs----- Other focus/absorption

Male ----vs------ Female 

The implications of you being 'life' itself

The whole emphasis on death is to understand that,

What you are is life,

And not the "gradual accumulations" of the body and mind,

Which shall be returned to earth in the course of the cycle of time (birth and death).

Any identification with anything that can only be fulfilled with the body, will result in a desire for reincarnation.

On the other hand, pure desires of pure energy can be fulfilled in the astral itself.

They are your instruments for expression or possessions, and not you.

How you hold your possessions depends on how established your realization and awareness is, about this fact that you are this pure non-physical energy/intelligence/substance of life.

Life works through the gathered forged instruments of the body and mind.

But life itself is transcendent of them.

Like the knots in the rope, or whirlpools in the water, or tornados in the air.

The physical manifestation is a certain modulation of the field of life.

So bondage is an illusion. The intrinsic nature of life is transcendent.

Once there is the smallest curve in space-time, the manifestation becomes cyclic.

So to go from physical to non-physical you are literally straightening yourself out.

To give complete freedom to manifestation, and then look at it clearly from the eyes of transcendent freedom, is to get enlightened/freed/mukti/moksha/liberation.

The energies that support the body will take care of the body - through creating forces to fulfill its maintenance. 

Hunger will make you eat, Thirst will make you drink, and there will be clear desires/impulses for each of the body instrument maintenance tasks.

Even the mind will gravitate to certain things, naturally seek balance, and thus maintain itself.

The personality (relational matrix program), body, and mind, are instruments serving life.

This is not in the realm of logic. Like why should I play music if it is going to get over. 

Life is for its own sake.

It is a fountain of creativity.

There is only God's will, God's desire, God's play, and you are that.

Factors affecting Experience

Factors affecting experience:

1. Astrology (The wheels of time that move the patterns of manifestation on earth)

2. Genetics (Ancestral bio-memories, the bloodlines)

3. Early life and pre-teen/teen conditioning (Age 1-6, 6-16)

4. Karmic tendencies/Samskharas (patterns) 

Truth is Beyond Time

Truth is not in time and space.

Time and Space is in the Truth.

Truth is now and here.

Time is just a playing out of the programs.

The programs themselves are in 5d, akashic space.

The mirror image of the manifest

Everything that you see a person manifesting,

Is from their internal structure.

If you just reverse it, you will see the "potentials/void-vacuums" operating within.

Just like a mirror image or a battery polarity.

Vacuums (-) attract stars (+)

Stars (+) attract vacuums (-)

Whatever is lacked -> Is sought outside as action.

It is just like how hunger(vacuum -) seeks food(stuff +).

The easy way to get direct knowledge about where someone is coming from,

Is to enact their manifestation, and then reverse it, to see where it is coming from.