In this Ra period over a decade: 2013-2023:
I learned the truth of helplessness at the deepest levels.
The ultimate and total humbling of everything that I was, I owe it all away.
I learned I am always at the mercy of god and grace.
I am in essence nothing.
All can change, what has to play out will play out.
All that plays up in awareness is from my unfathomable mystery nature.
That the deeper unknown mystery context underlies all that happens,
That the true causal reality is a mysterium unfathomable immeasurable, and all else is only its cascading effects.
We stand upon the ground of complete mystery and it spawns various layers from subtle to gross.
I got a deeper glimpse of Kala itself, through immersion into the mysteries (adept initiate), the penetration into the subtle.
Like looking at the mysteries of molecular and subatomic world for a material scientist.
One is only free as awareness itself and all action is only a response to the mysterious context playing up.
The true essence is no thing, maya is a mystery, and the challenge of life is to live through the flow of time.
Time pushes from the past, propels towards the future, with its own momentum.
In reality, I am all of the play of time itself, and every mystery is me, maya is my own power.
There is me as awareness, and the dream unfolding itself in time.
Is this dream, my body? my body chemistry? Is there an inside-outside at all? is there even something called a body? OR are all of these just variations of the dream itself?
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