What you want vs. what the deeper reality wants

If what you want is what the deeper reality wants,

Then you will succeed with very little effort.

If what you want is not what the deeper reality wants,

It is to move upstream with solely your effort,

And the effort will be nulled soon by the downstream of time.

Left side and Right side of the body role

The left hand/leg plays a supporting role to the right hand/leg which plays the acting/striking role.

The left creates the conditions and holds it for the right to act/strike. 

Insight on chakras

 

Wherever I go, the same things

Wherever I go there is: 

cooking, eating, drinking, cleaning, washing, drying, brushing, bathing, sleeping, walking, clothing, gathering, walling, talking, standing, sitting, fixing, packing, carrying, breathing, moving, maintaining

Thinking, planning, calculating, relating.

The conveyor belt of time.

Like a rat in a maze with the whole ground on a circle path conveyor belt.

Survival value ----vs----- Value for survival.

The only pleasure is in doing god's will from its smallest cycle to its largest ones.

I need enough pleasure to justify the huge costs/burdens/bills of existing in this time path.

Have to economize and manage the daily pleasure money I get from existence.

Getting crushed by the cycles of time - Trapped in the cycles of time - Riding the cycles of time.

There seem to be only 3 options:
Oppose - Obey - Obey + Direct with Vision

[Raga (resisting present) OR Dvesha (resisting present)] ------vs------ Vairagya (transparent, silent, all allowing).

Resistance (desiring the impossible, opposing the possible) ------vs------ Non-resistance allowing.

Raga/Desire-Dvesha/Fear go together.

If you desire something impossible, you will totally oppose everything.

Mind as a airplane/copter or camera

The mind is like an airplane/helicopter or camera.
It must be able to zoom in, zoom out, pan in all 360 degs.
It must be able to take off, land, and have all 3 movements - pitch, roll, ya.

You are the gathering from your receptivities

Everyone is a channeler of their influences,

Through their receptivities.

What are you receptive to?
What are you closed to?
The very gathering happens from the material that was received through the receptivity opening/channel.

The seed is channeling the cosmic forces through its lens of receptivities.

When one becomes totally receptive, then the full force of that channel flows through.

# We open up to what we want to be receptive to and receive. Conscious or Unconscious.

# We close down to what we do not want to receive. Conscious or Unconscious.

The person is actually the accumulation of that he/she was receptive too.
There can be different proportions:
20% gathering ------- 80% receptivity (still pulling)
80% gathering ------- 20% receptivity (still pulling)
Actualization/Gathering/Becoming -----vs----- Potential/Seeking/Receiving
So meeting a person, it can be seen how much has been gathered and how much is still potential.
A person generally will stay like an attracting vacuum, till the developmental potential has been consumed.

Just like the positive and negative ions in a battery.
Once the potential difference is equalized, the battery becomes neutralized.

Classically, a kid is much more potential than an adult for instance.
Because there is much more receptivity than gathered stuff.
The kid is mostly devoted to his/her parents and will equalize with their stature at some point of time. So this is the channeling that the kid does through his growing up years.
Most people lead lives that are simply repetitions of the ways their own parents lived.
The genetics cycles through and through.

Sometimes the mother father themselves have a child like receptivity.
Then the kid continues to stay receptive even in later life, because there is so much potential force still operational.
There are other parents who have reached steady state. 
For them their kids stay receptive only till they equalize with the parent, then they make the curve very gradual after that point.
They will keep pushing until they attain equivalence with their ego-image fantasy concoction/projection.

What is the Dark night of the Soul?

DNOS = Dark night of the heart = Dark night of Love.

Losing interest in the creation, and movement towards creator.

A deep hollowing out and loss of interest, withdrawal of cathexis/prana causing the unbecoming of all that was previously held in identity.

It is an identity dissolution and identity unbecoming and identity subtleization.

It puts everything into a limbo, bardo, liminal state,

Where one just witnesses the unfoldment of the process of sublimation/transmutation, almost like a rapid decay timelapse.

Where once  alive seeds are burnt up and only their dried remains remain.

Living through decay, rotting, putrefaction, digestion, burning up with fire of various seeds/trees/plants that were previously fed with cathexis/prana.

It is the identity level cymatics, of identity moving up to a higher freq and moving into subtler planes, identity elevation

The time when one keeps on living getting randomly/meaninglessly buffeted and slapped around by life.

It is the fading-out of the prior existence.

It is dissolution into a higher solvent. 

It is transformation of the entire being.

It is not for any reason, but trans-reason, for its own sake, the playout of the deepest longing.

It is the turning away from the world, and turning inward towards the source.

It is also the stress and pain of all that is clung onto in the world outside that stops this movement.

It is the return journey to source.

It is the separation of the soul/spirit from the body/ego identity.

All movement then is only driven by faith/longing, and not by reason.