Wherever I go, the same things

Wherever I go there is: 

cooking, eating, drinking, cleaning, washing, drying, brushing, bathing, sleeping, walking, clothing, gathering, walling, talking, standing, sitting, fixing, packing, carrying, breathing, moving, maintaining

Thinking, planning, calculating, relating.

The conveyor belt of time.

Like a rat in a maze with the whole ground on a circle path conveyor belt.

Survival value ----vs----- Value for survival.

The only pleasure is in doing god's will from its smallest cycle to its largest ones.

I need enough pleasure to justify the huge costs/burdens/bills of existing in this time path.

Have to economize and manage the daily pleasure money I get from existence.

Getting crushed by the cycles of time - Trapped in the cycles of time - Riding the cycles of time.

There seem to be only 3 options:
Oppose - Obey - Obey + Direct with Vision

[Raga (resisting present) OR Dvesha (resisting present)] ------vs------ Vairagya (transparent, silent, all allowing).

Resistance (desiring the impossible, opposing the possible) ------vs------ Non-resistance allowing.

Raga/Desire-Dvesha/Fear go together.

If you desire something impossible, you will totally oppose everything.