Time is an ever new fountain

Time is a fountain of endless brand-new-ness.

One never steps in the same river twice.

Every instant of time is absolutely unique and incomparable when seen in its full scope.

All comparison is only when we see partially in parts and degrees - comparing parts of perceived to parts of memory.

But the whole moves the whole, 

The whole also changes the whole in perception.

The 10^21 chemical reactions happening in this moment (which cause experience) are unique.

The whole in all changing and never changing at the same time.

It is all changing in appearance, but never changing in essence.

The deeper truth on torture

Other ppl torturing you or thinking about possibilities is a relatively smaller thing,

Compared to your own willingness to torture yourself.

I think sg has a very deep point, he keeps making again and again.

To choose life, because there is only life life and life.

Death is only a transition.

All fear of torture is really the fear of one's own dark side that attracts/gravitates to those things.

One's own penchant for torture and dark fantasies is the real fear. 

One's own destruction wish, attracts all kinds of destructive forces.

The heart is the temple

The heart is the temple.
The sanctum of the temple is the core of the heart.

What do you choose?

Perception riches -----vs---- Material/Relational riches.
Being it all -----vs----- Having it all
Brahmacharya/Yoga is just the conscious pursuit of highest desire.
To desire or not desire is not a choice, the desire for the all is not chooseable.
The only choice is whether you want to pursue it consciously or not.
Unconscious pursuit of this make up all the worldly personas.

Experience is like the colors, harmonies, flavors, beauty math etc.
All else is just props that enact the experiences and their harmonies.
The experience machine is the body chemistry/chemical reactions/activations/firings.
This chemistry activation is inturn controlled by electrical/pranic activations.
So mastery of the prana would inturn master the body chemistry too, 
Thus making the body the kalpavrisksha, the experience machine.

The transformation journey and the realization of faith

Faith is relevant in uncertainty.

When your model of life (formed from your past) does not explain your current experience.

It would also apply when you experience is not stable and consistent and flickering all the time with access doors opening and closing beyond your control appearing to do so at their own whim.

A person will always judge transformation as negative if it is only based on the past.

The only way transformation can be judged positively is by faith.

Transformation: Judging by past(negative) -----vs------ Judging by faith(positive)

What is loved has been lost ----vs----- What is loved has not yet come.

To live itself is to step into the unknown and it is to have faith.

The peak of the dnos is the lowest point, 

The point where the caterpillar has entirely de-structured and become the cocoon.

Where one walks into the unknown in pitch darkness,

And where all movement happens through faith and faith alone.

Faith is the vehicle that carries you through such dark times.

One knows not where one is.

Whether what is happening is a blessing or a curse,

Or even how to make any sense of what is happening.

Suicide, Depression, Bitterness, Alienation/Separation/Anti-social feelings, Thoughts of destruction of everything, all show a crisis or lack of faith.

This faith is actually the force of life itself that moves everything inexhorably.

This is the underlying condition at all times anyway.

Time makes you and breaks you, in its own time.

It structures and de-structures you.

When growing or dying or transforming, there is a lot more uncertainty, 

Lot more of stepping into the unknown, and therefore a lot more of change/life in a sense.

Life = change/unknown/mystery/spirit.

When things are stable and repetitive, there is a chance to build something of your own, 

Where this faith/unknown/uncertainty becomes knowledge of the world/certainty.

Life powers a steady identity platform for you, and makes its actions invisible to you by steadily maintaining it.

This then gives one the experience of being an individual and building your own things.

However, the greatest mystery of death, 

Although greatly veiled in a steady structured predictable known lifestyle, 

Still lurks and has been the intrigue for all of mankind in all times, since it is still the greatest mystery.

What is before birth, and what is after death, are still the 2 unknowns.

What we call our present life, is sandwiched between these 2 unknowns.

In-between we build our own bubble of knowledge and live and navigate our whole adult life through those structures.

We know not where we come from, and we know not where we are going.

The waterfall falls from the: Unknown ----- to the known ----- Back to the unknown.

In-between we live this lifestyle, in the train of life, watching the view from our assigned seat.

We are only instruments, life acts through us

We are only instruments,

Life acts through us.

The various energies of the planets and the energies that govern them,

Also work through us.
We are conductors of these energies we are receptive to.

We channel these energies, embody them, and emit these energies to others.

What does life want to manifest and bring forth through you?

All the past is a preparation for the future ultimately.

What is relevant will stay and live, the rest will fade.

Whatever you want/desire is the repetition of the good past, preferably in an even grander way.

But life is moving one with its own plan and future goal.

Will the good past repeat? OR will it all be left behind for something new?

Moving into the unknown is purely driven by life itself where you just surrender to its pull, 

Because what control can be there for the unknown?

It is to move from surrender/allowing/faith alone, 

And letting thy be done, and letting whatever wants to come through pass through.

Raga-Dvesha, the thrashing around

Raga (Ra) is the leading edge, 

Dvesha (Ke) is the trailing edge,

Of where you are thrashing around existence.

The Ra-Ke axis = Ra being the leading edge of Raga, 

Ke being the trailing edge of Dvesha.

Both are the same thing, they go together.

An intense Ra-Ke Axis, will be the snake squirming/thrashing around in existence.

The one who is trapped/crushed/oppressed by time.

It is a person who is intensely unhappy and in unrest with the present.

Vairagya is transparency/dispassion/allowing.

Everything takes its own time, every process.

You cannot get rid of things faster than you can.

You cannot attain things faster than you can.

You can only set/orient yourself right with full intensity,

And let time unfold the rest.

Only when all of you tries to really move, do you realize the true weight/inertia and resistance challenges in the system.

To be a non-doer is to surrender to time.

Where time moves you, and you just savor the ride.

Living needs faith

You need faith to live.

To live is to step into the unknown. 

How I listen to everyone

When any person talks,

I just listen to their subjective perspective,

And add it to my vision.

My intelligence+vision gives me my [direction, judgment, purpose] for my energies.

I see the same "infinite truth" through their lens,

And store that lens-view in my vision.

For me there is no hardened objective perspective apart from the summation of all subjective perspectives.

However each perspective hits me at different levels of power and depth as felt by me the subject,

Then I use everything to deepen and richen myself.

It is similar to eating different kinds of foods, supplements etc. 

Some match the complexity of your own body. Some are very simple. Some are very specific and concentrated.

I use everything for my own growth, deepening, and enrichening.

I streamline all my longings and move towards the highest.

The folded hands upward is my mudra - in and up - sattva.

Sattva = In and up = Mind to Beyond

Rajas = Out and Out = Mind to Mind

Tamas = Out and down = Mind to Matter 

My whole life is a pressure wave movement towards the beyond.

That means my real future self is already stationed in the beyond,

And it is waiting for me to catch up as fast as possible.

I would relate with the term "Seer of souls".

Psychic insights on Anger

Anger from outside is force.

From inside, anger feels like powerlessness-frustration.

It is inefficient wastage mostly.

It is trying to change something that cannot be changed that way.

Either nothing will change i.e. your force will be met with equal resistance,

Or it may even become counter-productive, 

I.e. close down the other further 

And/or they may attack+damage you now,

And/or they may built up anger within themselves to release on you later.

Anger is the ultimately the frustration at the other not being receptive/open.

But often the way the other is, is entirely impersonal.

They can only love/receive/be open to what you share,

If they are that way to those same aspects within themselves.

A person who has no connection to himself and is also violent against all the parts of him that communicate his real feelings to him, will be the same way with you and your feeling sharing etc.

So their violence is simply a reflection of their violence at themselves now displaced onto you.

It is a displacement.

Ultimately, people treat you the way they treat themselves.

A person who has truly seen themselves in complete honesty and depth, 

Will have deep compassion and insight naturally.