Pleasure and Pain

# Pleasure is beginnings, pain is endings

# Pleasure is expansion, pain is contraction

# Pleasure is success, pain is failure

# Pleasure is seeking, pain is withdrawal

# Pleasure is accel, pain is brake

# Pleasure is birth, pain is death

# Pleasure is growth, pain is retardation/regression

# Pleasure is wonder, pain is horror

The path from the lower ascs to the higher

The gurus or the higher LOCs know what has to open up/sublimate/thin-out/dissolve,

For the lower LOCs to become the higher LOCs.

Like how acid all permeates the solid and dissolves it into itself.

It is just low energy -> high energy.

From: Solid - Flexible - Liquid - Gaseous - Nothing.

From: Solid - Liquid - Gas - Plasma

From: Earth -> Water -> Fire -> Air -> Ether -> Shiva

Just higher degrees of freedom and openness/reception/subtlety.

So for one who wants to sublimate into greater subtlety,

He is open to receiving from the higher LOCs.

The higher LOCs are more like the sun.

The higher the LOC, the brighter they shine.

For anyone sincere sensitive and looking, the higher LOCs are unmissable.

First step is integrity, then there is seeking.

Without integrity, there isn't even the full clarity of one's true position at all.

It is just the way of escapism/deception.

You can believe you are the highest and end it there itself.

To really want to know the truth, requires sense! some kind of vision/awakening/humility,

To acknowledge one's true position and then look at all the others correctly from there.

Then it is clear that, all is a ladder, we serve those under, and receive from those higher.

Those higher are only too glad to give, if you show your sincere willingness to receive and transform.

The war between the conscious identity and the unconscious unfolding

The war between the conscious and the unconscious.

Where the energies go as per the unconscious ----vs----- Where and how I want them to go from the conscious.

# Talking myself into hating the things I am unconsciously liking/allowing/investing in.

# Talking myself into liking the things I am unconsciously hating/blocking/withdrawing from.

So I am often trying to talk myself into hating the entire world with various arguments, 

Because there is nothing of essence in it, it is all shadows just projected from elsewhere.

The unconscious me just moves towards all the things that have failed earlier, from its momentum,

While the conscious me is trying to stop all that investment outpouring into useless dead/painful ends and instead use that energy to search for something real/true/worthwhile/source.

The unconscious could be [evolutionary memory/genetic memory/karmic memory] with their unconscious patterns of algorithms/habits etc.

In reality the grapes are neither sweet nor sour. 

What and how they are depends on the way I am, the state/condition I am in.

The observer-observed pairing.

But I still need to be honest in terms of seeing where the habitual/unconscious energy is flowing towards.

What kind of fantasy, possibility, desiring outcomes etc.

Mostly it would be a grander repetition of the past that I am seeking.

The collage of different crumbs in the past that were good, making these good collages as fantasies.

All desire is repetition of the past.

A pleasurable experience creates the hook of seeking.

An unpleasurable experience creates a detering.

God is in all of the immanent, but is transcendent of all of it

It is like: The sun is good, but also the source of all energy on earth inc. fuels, plants, animals etc. all forms of energy.

So right now I am seeing all the versions of god, but god is in everyone and everything.

The transcendent ----and----- The immanent.

The attempt is to find the gold in the ornaments.

But all the ornaments will be then seen to be of gold.

But at the same time, they are not gold too in terms of their specific forms (JADA) 

The case for transcendence

Taking medications to tolerate the circumstances - has side effects, suffering, awareness reductions,

Not taking it is also enormous suffering,

But somehow likely nothing would make me take action and leave,

Somehow the feeling is that - I would mess up further by any action of mine,

This has become a really strong programming from seeing multiple failures in trying to find the source of fulfillment outside.

What I want I cannot see, but I know it is not in anything that I see or have seen.

They have all PROVEN themselves to be empty and therefore wastes of time.

So then there is this danger of repeating a million versions of negative pasts.

It is like I am lost in the mirror matrix but want to get out of it.

But all I see and search for is only inside all the endless images of the mirror.

My seeking is for the beyond, the foreign, something impossible, something unknown.

The unknown could be worse, but it is not like the pain of the sheer despair of the known at least.

There is some possibility there. Some exploration is possible.

There is no value to be found in the world.

That is only the shadow and appearance.

The gold will slip through my fingers or just vanish as I even begin to hold it.

Now there is not even much gold in sight at all, very very little of what once was.

Earlier the technicolor mirages, illusions could sometimes dazzle bewitch me, 

Now I live in an apocalyptic grey world with a few colors here and there.

So I want to deal with something closer to source,

Rather than being lost in these shadows, moving from one poison to the other,

While also wasting a bunch of energy in that process, 

And facing all the useless drama and involvements of that.

It is like I have enough failures in my being, to make me seek at this level.

Seems like the more the number of failures outside, more the evolution,

It is like total futility, powerlessness, helplessness is the final point before transcendence.

Because what else can make one transcend?

If what is wanted is found somewhere, sometime, then it would only create a circle of all frantic attempts to recapture that time-space.

The statement of transcendence is like:

May all your dreams fail, so that you may finally enter here.

People keep inventing new dreams and extending their lease of meaning/purpose etc.

But now I am at my last reserves in my capacity to deceive myself that something outside IS IT.

Creating a false dream is like jumping off a building and believe you are flying,

The higher the building, the longer the fall, but also more devastating the impact with the ground or reality.

More the falsity of the dream, more the crash/disappointment/anger/frustration/suffering when you realize it was not it.

By then you would have invested your whole life into it, and it will be too late.

You will have to live through the stomach upset till it clears,

And then hopefully you will not eat the same stuff again for this to repeat.

The rift between false joy and real joy, is based on how much the person is really aligned to the truth of things, how much real Vidya/Gyana has the person grokked/contemplated on.

Only the false shall be lost, the truth forever is.

Nothing real can be threatened, Nothing unreal exists.

But if all you have is the false, then everything can and in a way will be lost at some time.

So it is just a matter of vision.

The one seeking the ultimate truth, in the larger picture, is avoiding a whole load of useless crashes and suffering, thought in the immediate moment he may appear to be unhappy from all that he sees.

And when I say something outside, it is not just outside the body.

The body, brain, mind all are outsides only.

They are all JADA/Inert/Props. Only consciousness is Atma.

Rest is all JADA, but the mixing of consciousness with them gives them their life.

So this JADA is only meant to express your dance.

There is no inherent true real value in anything, apart from the formless transcendent subject.

Sick lost beings living on the medications/diet of uncountable number of illusions,

You cannot just pull them out.

As sg said, wisdom is needed to know what will help and what will not.

If I just pull them out, they will break, but the ropes will not.

They will still think the ropes that held them were more real.

They just don't have the necessary power inside themselves to digest what I give them and grow from that.

This is not different from treating people in the drug addiction ward.

Only here the drugs are their mountain sized belief systems and all the false meaning and activity that creates.

It seems best if they come to me, 

Rather than me going to them.

Even if they come to me, I still have to see how much fire they have come with.

Every question is an opening, but the opening is only as big as what is behind that question.

Everything comes from nothing and returns to nothing and comes back to everything.

x...Nothing -->-- Everything -->-- Nothing...x 

How did this something come from nothing, 

I have privileged inner access to know this.

Lifestyle dimensions

Lifestyle Dimensions: 

# Health/Bio-clock/Energy level/Hunger

# Relationships

# Career/Position/Social-identity

# Living situation

# Passions/Interests/Inspirations

# Luxuries

# Peace level

# Ability to choose focus (amount of free energy available)

# Inner strength/Faith

# Creativity access (accessing the source of creation) 

# Things/Visions/Goals to look forward to