The war between the conscious identity and the unconscious unfolding

The war between the conscious and the unconscious.

Where the energies go as per the unconscious ----vs----- Where and how I want them to go from the conscious.

# Talking myself into hating the things I am unconsciously liking/allowing/investing in.

# Talking myself into liking the things I am unconsciously hating/blocking/withdrawing from.

So I am often trying to talk myself into hating the entire world with various arguments, 

Because there is nothing of essence in it, it is all shadows just projected from elsewhere.

The unconscious me just moves towards all the things that have failed earlier, from its momentum,

While the conscious me is trying to stop all that investment outpouring into useless dead/painful ends and instead use that energy to search for something real/true/worthwhile/source.

The unconscious could be [evolutionary memory/genetic memory/karmic memory] with their unconscious patterns of algorithms/habits etc.

In reality the grapes are neither sweet nor sour. 

What and how they are depends on the way I am, the state/condition I am in.

The observer-observed pairing.

But I still need to be honest in terms of seeing where the habitual/unconscious energy is flowing towards.

What kind of fantasy, possibility, desiring outcomes etc.

Mostly it would be a grander repetition of the past that I am seeking.

The collage of different crumbs in the past that were good, making these good collages as fantasies.

All desire is repetition of the past.

A pleasurable experience creates the hook of seeking.

An unpleasurable experience creates a detering.