I feel like I am in the border

I feel like I am on the border of:

-- Existence and non-existence

-- Self and non-self

-- Consciousness and unconsciousness

-- Wake and sleep

-- Being and non being

-- Awareness and non-awareness.

-- Doer and non-doer

-- A merger of feeling and doing + merger of feeling and thinking

-- Thinking through feeling + feeling through thinking

Everything feels like a blur, a surreal experience.

Reminds me of early childhood.