The 3 stages: Growth, Transformation or Maintenance, Dissolution

Indulgence leads to exhaustion.

[Prod and Consump rates] should match.

If consumption is always greater = you will fall into suffering, death, and loss.

On the other hand, if production is greater = you will build up the inner reserves and power.

3 stages: Growth, Transformation, Dissolution:

# Growth is additive (+), 

# Transformation is equal addition and subtraction (+ and -)

# Then there is death = which is only subtraction (-), no addition.

Life path 3 phases:

# So life starts off from the fertilized egg as "GROWTH(+)" until the full growth is reached around 25?!

# Then there is the stage of "TRANSFORMATION(+ -) OR STASIS/MAINTENANCE(+ -)", you choose. Adding new things or adding the same things, that is the choice.

# Then there is the stage of "DEATH(-)" which is only loss.

Also for every zero sum cycle, there is a gain in the higher cycle.

Like when the minute hand goes round the clock once fully, it causes the hour hand to move slightly.

Every birth then is like a journey/trip/adventure/school.

The infinite intelligence shines through all creation

The infinite intelligence shines through all creation.
It is for you to open yourself to seeing this in every form.

Controlling the sub-persona engagement with others

No matter, how many sub-personas exist in a person,

By frame-controlling the interaction,

You can engage specifically with whichever one you want.

But generally I like to leave it free, and let the whole mix with the whole.

Because I like freedom for both myself and the other.
I don't like the pressure of control.
I want it to be an organic natural whole interaction.

Becoming is the focusing of a potential

Whatever your SOC,

Every thing/form seems to focus it.

It is like the painting colors are the SOC.

And the forms give them form to varying degrees of sharpness.

There there is the "Forming power" energy.

If that is low, you cannot hold any form, and it would never reach full clarity and resolution.

You would have to stop at the abstract itself.

All achievements are the peak of becoming-focus and clarity.

It is just like the different levels of drawing a face,

From abstract ------- To the photograph 

(and all the knowledge at each layer).

That is why I feel between the sky and earth,
From Akaash -> Air -> Fire -> Water -> Earth,
I cannot quite come down to earth and reach materialization levels.

My creations stay at the level of air itself.
That is why the extensive writing as the creative output.

That is why I relate very strong to being like an eagle.
I can ascend the skies and gain visionary knowledge.
But I can only come to the ground strategically,
And cannot live in the ground like actual ground animals do.
It is like I live in a bridge reality between the astral and physical.

It is the world of the artist, transporter between realms.

Samskara vs Karma

The situation = Samskara
Your response = Karma

Completion begets more completion

Completion begets completion
Happiness begets happiness
Incompletion begets incompletion
Unhappiness begets unhappiness

About silence

More the silence/stillness = Higher the frequency + higher the influence power.

More the sound = Lower the frequency + lower the influence power.

"Silence is the ultimate dissolution, 

And all solution is dissolution".

Creation is dissolved in silence.

Creation emerges in sound.

Silence = Unborn, Uncreated, Infinite potential.

Silence cures everything.

It is the greatest refuge.

Advice I give myself on listening to the body

Separate the chakras.

Food and water is about listening to the body.

Listen to these centers:

# Water = 5c

# Food = 3c

# Sex = 2c.

# Physical activity = 1c.

Following rules etc. is to still give away "power/knowledge/authority" to the outside.

It is a continuation of the idolization of parents.

They are a stepping stone, and so are all other authorities.

They are not to be used as a permanent crutch.

You are meant to learn and outgrow them, and not be permanently under them.

One has to take total responsibility and move towards that autonomy.

The movement from "Knowledge/rules -> DE/DK/DP"

Anyway all knowledge/rules point to your own DE/DK/DP.

So rather than being focused on playing with the pointers all the time, work directly in the space of what is pointed at - that is your own DE/DK/DP/Understanding.

Denial and Control always go together.

The controlling person has suppressed/repressed too many things and is trying to shield that system all the time.

Rather, keep receiving new input about your self and keep upgrading your understanding and structures.

Be a work in progress rather than a fixed system that has to be endlessly defended.

Excessive Fixity/Rigidity coming from identification with a fixed narrow psychological structure is actually the root of most psychological illnesses.

It creates a lack of flow/evolution.

Open up everything in the mental and physical space and adapt your structure to that.

The simultaneous dream

There is no causation.

Everything is a simultaneous appearance.

Just like a dream.

Spawning the [dreamer ---- relationship ----- dream world] simultaneously.

Even here:

Me (the changing subject configuration) ----- in relationship with ------ World (the changing object configuration)

Is happening together, simultaneously.

Experience is essentially the sex/relation between a changing me and the changing world.

This play of this [changing relationship] between the [changing me structure] and the [changing world structure] is MY EXPERIENCE.

There is only this experience-dream.

I am the light/fire/intelligence/awareness, 

And this whole dream happens as the modulation and play of my substance.

I am neither emptiness nor the fullness of this dream appearing.

This whole dream is one of my possibilities, 

And my true nature is ever free and transcendent of whatever appears.

The 3 states of consciousness

The modes of operation:

Sleep = Sleep

Dreaming = Imagination

Waking = Sleep + Imagination + Waking senses

Your rooting determines your freedom/dance

Life itself is a response. 

Infinite response = Infinite response-ability. 

Your ability to perceive and adapt/rearrange your elements using intelligence to let the response flow through.

Now this rearrangement is not necessary all the time and totally.

There is the dimension of life that is relatively unchanging, the foundation.

If you lock the root chakra and stabilize it with that, then the expression can be much grander and powerful.

Exactly like how in martial arts, the strength of your punch comes from your rooting.

Here the grandness of your life comes from your establishment and rooting in the ground.

That is why sg was saying, the root chakra is the foundation and it therefore has to be tuned to the most unchanging aspect of life.

You use the ground to jump higher.

The more you push off the ground, the higher you can jump.

The more stable your foundation, the higher you can jump without losing balance.

Gyana is the ultimate foundation in my opinion.

The rooting foundation determines the freedom and possibility.

You can watch a movie or do crazy things in a lucid dream only after establishing yourself about their nature.

Similarly this life can be enjoyed only from the position of transcendence and rooting.

People take rooting into the socio-cultural-familial systems.

But I want to take root in Gyana/Wisdom got from DE/DP/DK. 

Other people's integrity authenticity responsibility is my security and foundation

Another person's "integrity, stability, sanity, respect + inclusion for others, responsibility, authenticity, enriching activity" = My "security stability relief peace relaxation ease rest harmony" and I can focus on "developing myself with a good stable conducive foundation".

Else there is feeling of "fear, threat, anxiety, preparedness to defend/fight/argue/protect, hypervigilance, arousal, alertness, stress" and a pressure to keep self-correcting the "disruption, disturbance, noise, domination, unfairness, unreasonableness, oppression, tyranny, craziness, violations, exploitation, madness, drama (strawman, misleading, misguiding, totally unnecessary, leading astray, gaslighting, self-serving, specious), chaotic energies" in my own system and in the atmosphere around me.

The play of the millions of chemicals and neurotransmitters is 'experience'

Capacity for sublime enjoyment ----and---- Capacity for sublime suffering.

It is all in the consciousness and its refine-ness.

It is basically how the "consciousness light" shines "through" my "millions of neurotransmitters and organic chemicals"

It depends on my instrument and what influences I hone into.

Those continuously flowing/shifting "millions of neurotransmitters chemicals" (MoNC) form the screen images/experience.

The potential for all experience then is within the body.

The field moves the body.

The body is like a receiver/receptacle for universal influences.

This experience is what I call 'feels'.

Surrender all memory back to the field, into expansion, into the higher frequency.

Experiencing and the willingness to experience itself is a sublimation.

Karma has to be experienced, released, and thereby sublimated.

First I become a universal finest solvent myself, then my capability to dissolve anything becomes supreme - which would put me in the class of 'dissolver'.

The experience food that you have taken has to be digested/processed.

The physicality and mentality is from the whirlpools and tornados forming in the river and the winds of Mahakala.

I needed to spawn here and get a body-mind setup - now I'll focus only on my true desires - to complete with everything and everyone here.

Sadhana paadam (the seeking/striving/adventure) -> Kaivalya paadam (enjoyment of the fruits)

Whatever is good enriching for life is good/right.

Whatever is bad diminishing for life is bad/wrong. 

The dance of the narcissist and borderline patterns within the psyche

All judgment is self-judgment. That is what creates guilt.

All rejection is self-rejection.

We attract or are triggered by whoever mirrors our own self-judgment and self-rejection.

Parents ignoring you is a cold-war hostility. 

It is introjected as "I must be bad, parents are good' or projected as "Parents must be bad, I am unconditionally good".

Then one does not know what is wrong in oneself that others do not like. 

So it becomes other-focused, and focused always on the reflection of itself in others (hypnosis), and believes "It is bad, but it does not know why it is bad".

So it keeps attracting "critical" "fixed mindset narcissist" personalities who are themselves trying to live up to an image to atone themselves - because here it ticks both boxes:

I am bad + Why I am bad (some impossible goals).

It confirms and validates the negative self-image.

For the narcissist, the attraction is, just yesterday she was so nice to me and understood everything, and today all is lost. There must be a way to train her to stay in the idealization state, and then he keeps trying to fix her.

This is the dance between the borderline and the narcissist.

The narcissist will seek higher and higher ideals in the hierarchy.

While the borderline aspect of self is untameable, problem creating, reckless, unpredictable, disruptor - and opposes even the highest of ideals in a deep regression into chaos.

Since the borderline is an empty mirror, it can idealize the narcissist completely and fulfill it.

This is what the narcissist is seeking. The approval validation adoration admiration.

But the borderline will switch to the polar opposite and reverse everything.

The narcissist tries to get the borderline to agree to its ideals.

But the borderline is going to change into hyde after playing jekyll with rapidly alternating idealization and devaluation, because the repression mechs are like a muscle, only works for some time.

This pattern is so addictive because it is inconsistently fulfilling, exactly like cocaine.

That is what holds the 2 trapped with each other.

The borderline because of the failure of repression cannot hold on to the idealized narcissist loving self, loses the repression sooner or later, and sets forth a bunch of repressed forces that perform the opposite actions of destruction.

The narcissist has the 'inadequacy/unworthiness' wound, to reach the ideals, so as to be worthy of approval/love/respect/adoration/admiration/esteem.

The 'unconscious superego ideals' dominates the unconscious.

The borderline has the 'unconscious id primal impulses' dominating the unconscious.

So the borderline and narcissist are not meant to be together, the relationship is a stretch from both sides. The narcissist stretches to try to fix the borderline while the borderline struggles to repress its 'id' to meet the ideals of the narcissist.

So both of them have that suffering on-off/intermittent/inconsistent/flashing/unsustainable relationship.

The ultra organized independent narcissist ----vs----- The ultra dependent enmeshed borderline

They are both parts of human nature.

And these 2 are its extremes.

The drive to become the ideal to get admiration/value/love ----vs---- The drive to become the seductress to merge into different personas and get loved/wanted.

Idealism (narcissist) ----vs---- Seduction (borderline)

Both of these come from the visuddhi 5c throat chakra = anyakara rift.

The skill of becoming the achiever, ideal ---vs---- Merging into the other, shape shifting Cinderella, pure seduction.

Self focus/absorption ----vs----- Other focus/absorption

Male ----vs------ Female 

The implications of you being 'life' itself

The whole emphasis on death is to understand that,

What you are is life,

And not the "gradual accumulations" of the body and mind,

Which shall be returned to earth in the course of the cycle of time (birth and death).

Any identification with anything that can only be fulfilled with the body, will result in a desire for reincarnation.

On the other hand, pure desires of pure energy can be fulfilled in the astral itself.

They are your instruments for expression or possessions, and not you.

How you hold your possessions depends on how established your realization and awareness is, about this fact that you are this pure non-physical energy/intelligence/substance of life.

Life works through the gathered forged instruments of the body and mind.

But life itself is transcendent of them.

Like the knots in the rope, or whirlpools in the water, or tornados in the air.

The physical manifestation is a certain modulation of the field of life.

So bondage is an illusion. The intrinsic nature of life is transcendent.

Once there is the smallest curve in space-time, the manifestation becomes cyclic.

So to go from physical to non-physical you are literally straightening yourself out.

To give complete freedom to manifestation, and then look at it clearly from the eyes of transcendent freedom, is to get enlightened/freed/mukti/moksha/liberation.

The energies that support the body will take care of the body - through creating forces to fulfill its maintenance. 

Hunger will make you eat, Thirst will make you drink, and there will be clear desires/impulses for each of the body instrument maintenance tasks.

Even the mind will gravitate to certain things, naturally seek balance, and thus maintain itself.

The personality (relational matrix program), body, and mind, are instruments serving life.

This is not in the realm of logic. Like why should I play music if it is going to get over. 

Life is for its own sake.

It is a fountain of creativity.

There is only God's will, God's desire, God's play, and you are that.

Factors affecting Experience

Factors affecting experience:

1. Astrology (The wheels of time that move the patterns of manifestation on earth)

2. Genetics (Ancestral bio-memories, the bloodlines)

3. Early life and pre-teen/teen conditioning (Age 1-6, 6-16)

4. Karmic tendencies/Samskharas (patterns) 

Truth is Beyond Time

Truth is not in time and space.

Time and Space is in the Truth.

Truth is now and here.

Time is just a playing out of the programs.

The programs themselves are in 5d, akashic space.

The mirror image of the manifest

Everything that you see a person manifesting,

Is from their internal structure.

If you just reverse it, you will see the "potentials/void-vacuums" operating within.

Just like a mirror image or a battery polarity.

Vacuums (-) attract stars (+)

Stars (+) attract vacuums (-)

Whatever is lacked -> Is sought outside as action.

It is just like how hunger(vacuum -) seeks food(stuff +).

The easy way to get direct knowledge about where someone is coming from,

Is to enact their manifestation, and then reverse it, to see where it is coming from.