The projection of hate and need for isolation

Like Shunya said,

You are only projecting fantasies and people are responding with counter-projections to those.

So when in a state of emanating hate to others,

I isolate, because it will trigger those results to reflect,
Which will then multiply the source projection.

So my own projection multiplies itself in my experience via. others giving me a ton more of what I do not want.

The others are like a bunch of mirrors that will multiply my emanated light with 100s of reflections adding up.

I think there is a chemical basis for all of this.
There must be some base levels of neurotransmitters modulating the whole experience field.
So with chemical supplementation, the base mood itself can be changed, 
Which will result in different emanations from you, 
And will thereby mirror those emanations back to you,
Causing a whole different experience flavor to happen.

The control of all mood, is the control of "thought-energy/pran/electric charge-chemistry".
There is an inside out influence from: thought - charge - chemistry.
And there is an outside in influence from: chemistry - feel/charge - thought.

Here like sg said, the karmic-information/tendencies determines the mood/affects/quality of life.
Mastery over energies is capability powers, 
And mastery over time is mastery over death.
All is in how you hold the karmic information, not in the information itself.

It is the way you hold it, that is the only thing to work on.
There must be first transcendence of all the karmic info.
Then one has to dry the potatoes out by living them through.

So when alone, I keep this multiplication reflections factor off.

Whereas when you desire/like/love/cherish an other, then being with them gives you no fear, 

Because you see in them that which you project, that is reasons to like/love/cherish/desire them.
Even if they do not respond well to that, you still see those things in them, so in your experience, they are still sweet deeper inside.

That is why, when you can only see what you despise, that will multiply itself through every interaction.

It is all happening in one's own consciousness.

So even if the other reacts in a positive way, it will mitigate the original hate, but not remove it.

You would feel they are nice on the surface as a coverup but inside they are still wretched and terrible.

So the original self-hatred results in an other-hatred.

The original self-denial and self-abandonment results in the same towards others, other-denial and other-abandonment.
So if the self is entirely fixed, the projections will be entirely fixed too, then the stage has been set right.

In hatred, I want the others to disappear from my consciousness.

So the reflection is of them also wanting me out and avoiding me intensely.
So the whole thing sustains itself as a tension where I perceive others hating me and me hating them and then as a result they hating me further and then me hating them further, and so on.

A dynamic like that is set up.
It is the opposite of eros/bonding.
Where I see reasons to like someone else, 

And then in turn find reasons to like me further, 

And then I also take it further, and so on.

That is the opposite kind of dynamic.
The important thing is the root projection.

That is what straight away simply mirrors itself in one's experience.

Like if you believe cats are mean selfish self-centered self-absorbed manipulating creatures,
Then everything that the cat does will be seen in that light only.
If you see all systems of power as just a self-serving psychopathic enterprise, 
Then you would see everything in that light only.
All of reality perception will be modulated and warped to fulfill the premise.
It is interesting to wonder about whether this is a top-down or bottom-up process.
How did it all start and is there a causal chain?
Bad memories -> reinforce the belief that they are bad -> Further accumulation of bad memories -> further reinforcement.
It seems like all beliefs are self-fulfilling patterns once set into motion. 
They maintain themselves, eat their own food, and grow themselves.
And after a while these beliefs die too, when we start to feel bored with them,
And seek all kinds of information and evidence to the contrary to disprove them.
It is as if these beliefs live us, rather than we living those beliefs.